Adlina's Birthday :D

To the youngest and most ngada sister in the world,

Happy Upcoming Birthday!

Sadness

Allah will always comfort you

I’ve been so empty these days, I have my family, my friends, 

I’ve got extra time to complete my work at times, 

but there’s still emptiness in me.

Then I realised that I’ve not talked to Allah for a very long time. 

I did pray everyday, but at times I feel like I am doing it, 

for the sake of doing it, because it’s just my routine

 and this shouldn’t be the case.

One day, Allah has poured me with sadness, 

but I know He doesn’t mean to hurt me, 

instead He wants to give me some lessons.

When you care so much, it hurts. 

It hurts more when no one appreciates you.  

Well, maybe they don’t mean it, 

they do appreciate you 

but their kind of appreciation can’t be felt by you.

So, I cried. I cried because of that petty things. 

Maybe I’ve been holding my grudge for so long, 

then one day, I bursted.

I asked forgiveness from Allah, 

because maybe I’ve done so many mistakes

 or maybe I’ve not been that dependent on Him all this while, 

so in my prayer, I cried.

I felt so guilty, it’s like me talking to Him only when I’m sad, 

and hardly talk to Him when He has given me 

so much of joy and happiness in my life.

But the best part is, I know He’ll still listen to me even

 He already knew the thing I told Him.

Then I took the Quran, and recited it, and read its meaning. 

“Dan janganlah kamu berasa lemah, 

dan jangan pula bersedih hati, 

sebab kamu paling tinggi darjatnya, 

jika kamu orang yang beriman.” 

(Al-‘Imran 3:139)

Masha Allah. 

The first ayat I read, He already comforted me.

 Somehow, we don’t have to wait for years or hours to wait for His reply.  

In a split second, He will comfort you.

All this while, I shouldn’t wait for people to say sorry. 

I shouldn’t ask for their appreciation, I shouldn’t demand for them to comfort me, 

because Allah will. He will always be there for me, when no else isn’t. 

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. 

 For giving me the pleasure of thankfulness 

after pouring me with a small portion of sadness in my heart.

 Alhamdulillah.

Update!

Well, so many things that I have to update now.
I got tonnes of assignments due next week, I have homework,
I have lists of things that I haven't revised yet and yet I am still blogging
and tumblring.

Oh wait, did I just mention tumblr?

Yeah, I have it, but I am not ready to publish it, haha.

Pretty much like it.
LAter :)

ps, there's significant meaning behind that L&A.

Of Pepper Spray

Life is pretty hectic these days, I have to do so many essays of thousands words

and note that, they are all about distinctive subjects, ie Math, TOK Physics. Crazy.

I don't quite know how I can write an essay on Math,

well I just did and I had to make it more math.

I don't know how does it make sense when your number of words is measured based on numbers,

like 12 is considered as how many words, yeah crazy!

And physics, pfft.

I have to do 4000 words essay and I  stuck at 2487.

Mindblown.

That's pretty much of an IB life :)

Oh yeah!

Tests!

We have a lot of tests, that kills my mind.

But! Haha like how rainbow comes after the rain,

I pretty much can see the rainbow of mine.

Well, that's not really the permanent rainbow,

because those essays-tests-quizzes-repeat are still going on huhu

but one of my wishing lists had come true :D

In my previous blog,

I kept on harping on my dream wanting to watch a basketball match etc,

and yeah, that dream had come true few months ago and yesterday!

(Note that it's not the ordinary basketball game like you watch in the tv 

or like what I watched in the Philippines, it's just different)

Indeed, we all need that pause from doing any serious business,

and have our little escapade.

And yeah, you're my little escapade.